This morning I woke up from the worst nightmare of my life.
It was so bad that I couldn’t get back to sleep, the images were too vivid.
It was too real.
I won’t go into the details, but there was a whole lot of bloody, hateful, brutal murder involved.

The clouds stole the sunrise, but I watched the day set in regardless as I tried to shake the dream.
While it was a horrible dream, there was something even worse involved in it:
In order to save myself, I became timid and hid.
I tried to blend in and attract no attention to myself.
I wanted to be just another face in the crowd to buy my life more time.
I didn’t fight to save the people that were dragged away from next to me.
I didn’t sacrifice myself so that they could live.
I did nothing.

It felt like a metaphor for my life somehow.
Simply blending into society and immersing myself in mediocrity.
Accepting my “fate” and simply enduring life, trying to stay alive.
But what is life if you are not really living and not being fully you?
What is life if you don’t have the people you care about with you?

This world is a bit of a mess at the moment, but don’t worry, I’m not thinking of running out to fight (Ask the people I box with, I’m not a very good fighter)
But it really was a wake-up call, not just literally.
And I didn’t wake up to be unremarkable or mediocre.
We have one life and none of it is accidental.
We are exactly where we are meant to be.
Our lives have purpose and we need to step and do the things we were born to.
Use the giftings we have.
Let our light shine out, even in the face of adversity!

I’ve been wanting to write a blog for a while, but even though I had many ideas, I didn’t really have anything to say.
Today I can’t keep quiet. Today I need to remind you that you are remarkable!
You are exactly who you are meant to be!

The scary thing is that for many people in other places in the world, my dream could be their reality today.
I’m glad I’m nicely nestled in Portugal, but I am still going to step up and not merely survive.
I want to live! And I want to see the people around me do the same.

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