Everywhere. Nowhere. Anything. Nothing.
I want it all. I want it now.
The problem is that I don’t even know what “it” is.
I want to change the world and sleep for days.
I like to work hard, but I also love the idea of not having to work at all.
Even better, working for what I believe in, rather than just for the money!
I want community. But the road calls my name.
And the ocean beckons me even louder.
I want to live in parallel universes so that I can do and have everything but I don’t think I can. (Can I?)
I have to decide. I don’t like to make decisions.
I usually just say “Yes”. “Yes” can take you to so many places.
But sometimes you have to use the “No” word too. “No” could teleport you to even better “Yes” options.
And while I sit in a vortex of endless uncertainty, I want to book flights and jump on sailing boats and take my bicycle for a long “walk” to faraway places. I want to explore the world.
But my bank account, after months of adventures, tells me I need to be wiser than that.
A part of me says: “Find a secure job so that all your basic needs are met.”
But a bigger part says: “Start your own thing, you already know what to do, just start.”
My heart says: “Get a boat.” But once again, my bank account shouts: “Not a chance!”
After quitting my job, I thought a little adventure would give me clarity. But after visiting the Netherlands, Romania, Moldova, Hungary, South Africa, and Madeira, I’m still as confused!
Every plan I have made has somehow transformed into something very different (not necessarily a bad thing). And every dream I have seems so awesome that it almost seems unattainable. I spent 2024 teaching teenagers that they could be and do ANYTHING, I’m hypocriting big time.
25% of 2025 has literally flown by in smiles and laughs and adventures (also a lot of rain, snow, mud slides, and dirt). But I have a sneaky suspicion, should I happen to actually make decisions, that greater things are yet to come.
Life. It is an adventure. And it needs to be enjoyed.
Instead of sitting here dreaming, I think it’s time to take a few leaps of faith.
After all, when nothing is certain, everything is possible.
But nothing epic ever happens unless you take a little risk and venture into the unknown.
